For our oldest, Dominic-age 21. Trying to be independent while having rehabilitating anxiety & resulting depression. Won’t go to therapy/take medicine. Has been suicidal. Believes that God doesn’t care and is just watching him flail. Anxiety makes him afraid of so much, so he avoids. Wants girlfriend but not like this. Blames me & his dad out of self-doubt. Living 3.5 hours away. Self-medicating.